The isolation of Class Consciousness
The ultimate form of alienation Marx did not consider. Alienation in Marxism. I do not have any other Marxists in my life. My friends and family all come from a very suburban middle class capitalism supporting background. Im not even sure who knows that I am. I havent told anyone directly but Ive dropped some hints here and there just to kinda measure if were on the same page. Such as a criticism of a certain upcoming trillionaire just to hear them say "well he deserves it". And thats when I know we arent on the same page and that I should watch my words. Ill debate a bit but I really think id be disowned by a lot of people if they knew. So im careful. Maybe some put it together. But as far as I know. They dont know and cant know. Because if im thrown out im homeless.
Which ironically enough is one of the things I despise most about capitalism. Realizing How someone else owning the roof I need to survive under basically means they own me to the extent I cannot even speak my mind freely. And even if I had the financial freedom to say whatever I want. Id still probably stop getting invited to things.
And for the record. My views are actually super mild and could probably be more closely compared to syndacalism. Im just a theorist. But it really doesnt matter what my views are cause when people hear "Marxist" they make all kinds of assumptions
Anywho I digress, its just incredibly lonely. Its not exactly easy to connect with other Marxists irl. And, even tho I used to carry this silly notion that if I just presented people a perfectly logical argument, they'd see things my way. Ive come to understand that, for people who the system has worked for, there is no reason to analyze or audit the system. It worked for them so if it didnt work for you its easier to just say you arent trying and praise the system that blessed them. I even know some people the system isnt working for at all that I thought would get it for sure but nope. Too scary to feel like they aren't in control of their own destiny. Even if it means they have to think less of themselves. And idk. At this point I've kinda lost hope in opening someone's eyes to class consciousness. Maybe you guys can tell me some experience with that cause I have none. I was class conscious before I even had words to describe how I felt. And who knows. Maybe I can even make a Marxist friend. Thanks for reading