Hi, hello, thanks for reading! There's a lot to get into and I wasn't sure where to post about my situation so please let me know where else to potentially push this. I'm not going to dive into all of the abusive things that have happened over the past 22 years but instead I'll give a quick rundown:
I (22F) currently live with my parents while I'm finishing college. I have about a year and a half left until I graduate. Recently, the emotional abuse from them, mainly my mother, has been at an all time high. Usually, she likes to double down on the abuse if I'm being successful in something. My grades have been amazing this semester, which I've been talking about a lot since I'm proud of the achievement. She'll often comment on my looks, my mannerisms, and blames random events on me. My dad often takes her side as well. I've been called rude, disrespectful, ugly, and disgusting to name a few. The older I get, the more I'm aware of the abuse. The difficult part is that I can't afford to move out and if I do move out my tuition will stop getting paid for and they own my car, so I wouldn't be able to use it. They used to be able to track where my car was, but thankfully the service has been discontinued so they are unable to. I've taken that opportunity to do Doordash in between my classes to earn more money.
I want to be able to finish school. It's already been drilled into my brain that I'm behind everyone else. That if I don't finish, I'll be a failure. I can't afford to pay tuition on my own. Since the abuse has increased, my mental health has taken a nose dive and I've done some things that I'm not proud of.
I'm mainly here to ask advice on what to do moving forward. Do I move out anyway and focus on work or do I stay and endure it for one more year until I graduate? Any advice would be appreciated, I feel stuck.