u/Cool_Durian_5016

I got diagnosed 2 ish years ago at 28, and like the title states.. I have ocd. I worry so much about lows (I’ve had several really bad ones), and I live on activity mode with my omnipod because I’d rather be high than low. I know it’s not good. We’ve tried to get my settings right but we just cannot get it to where I feel comfortable being off of activity mode. Most of my lows have been triggered by just daily tasks like cleaning my house. I’m terrified to actually work out. I do have a therapist but I’m not getting anywhere with it. I actually don’t know what I’m looking for with this post but??? Maybe someone who has also had these struggles an/or someone who has suggestions? I’ve had multiple chronic illnesses my whole life but this one is really getting me.
I’ve not been in DKA, I’m not avoiding eating or anything. I just cannot figure out how to let go of the activity mode and it’s taking a huge toll on my mental health because all I want to do is let the pump do its job but my brain won’t let me 😭