It’s been a little over a year since my high school boyfriend (18 at the time) broke up with me(F19at the time) after 2 years together and I heavily regret how I acted during the relationship. I was jealous and controlling, even though I didn’t want to be, and I couldn’t seem to stop. At first I blamed him, but recently I’ve realized I was the problem. At the time, I was extremely emotionally dependent on him, I genuinely felt like I couldn’t live without him, and after the breakup I hit a really dark place and even had a suicide attempt. Looking back, I can see how unhealthy that mindset was, and I’ve worked a lot on myself since then. I’m a complete different person now, and I wish he could see that and give us another chance. But he moved on just a couple months after we broke up and has been in a relationship for a year. I know she treats him well, but it still hurts, and part of me wishes we could reconcile—even though I know that might not be realistic.
Does anyone have a similar story with a happy ending?
TL;DR: I was toxic in my first relationship, took a year to grow and take accountability, and now wish I could try again—but he’s moved on and in a happy relationship.