Hey everybody I’m 16 m and I got diagnosed about ten days ago I’m trying really hard to be positive but too be honest I’m scared. Me and my ex girlfriend were together for about a year it was well known for her that she couldn’t have children so we were in the habit of not using condoms we were together for about a year breaking up shortly after October last year since then we on a occasion would see each other and sleep together and she told me she hadn’t been with anyone since me so I had no issue but most recently we slept together she told me she hadn’t been with anyone (lie) and wanted to sleep with me so we did no problem a few days after I got a small patch of what I thought were ingrown hairs (I was wrong) turns out five days before she had contracted it from some other guy. I genuinely brushed off my first out break no pain no itching just a couple red spots later I find out she had taken the test earlier that same day and come positive the next calling and telling me that I should get checked and you can guess what the answer was.
Tbh I’ve just been feeling sorry for my self not necessarily that I’m positive just that she was my first and only ever and I’m now locked in to this for life
I’ve been trying to feel good about myself and tell myself I’m still worth wanting, not to gloat but I think I’m in pretty good shape I used to love looking in the mirror 😭 but I just don’t really like what I see anymore
My friends set me up with this really sweet girl about a week ago and I was feeling much worse then too so I figured I’d go and just kinda be there then never see her again but she just happens to be the most forward and sweet girl ever she made out with me on the first night we met and even though it’s very quick for me we’ve been doing so since, a few days later she was at mine and began kissing me and getting on top of me and started reaching down I dam near had a panic attack and left the room to find my friends I just know because of how people my age are that when I disclose she’ll leave and worse I totally understand why I feel so guilty for even kissing her even tho that’s no risk I just feel so bad about it because she doesn’t know what she’s kissing
Anyway I’m sorry If this breaks any rules but I really appreciate your advice and support I really needed to vent somewhere thank you for reading everyone
From- a scared kid with herpes 🥀