u/Cool-Bag1782

So i took admission in engineering in 2022. Without any drip year. Got into cse Pune university.

1st sem - Passed my mid-sem , got all back in endsem.

And thats where it all started.

Honestly I was never interested in engineering but did it anyway. Idk why I choose to do it. Anyway , I told everything to my parents , they were supportive, I took therapy

Then 2nd sem(july 2023) - i thought chor deti hu engineering but nhi chor paayi.

Fir sirf 2 subjects nikle 10 mai se.

Year down ho gya.

Now year down 1st sem(December 2023) - Koi exam nhi diye. Fucked up again.

Till now I was thinking of leaving it.

Then my dad came to my city and he told me don’t leave and all. We don’t mind about the year down and all. Take your time.

But all that was taking toll on my mental health. I used to cry daily.

Thought of ending my life multiple times.

But i can’t. My parents have noone, I am their only child.

Being a disappointed after my parents gave me everything was hard.

Then agreed to continue engineering

2nd sem after year down (may 2024) - Cleared 3 more subjects without studying.

Joined 2nd year (July 2024)

Things were going smooth but still had 5 subjects to clear.

My 2nd year was going smooth. I cleared those subjects but again 2 backs. From 2nd year.

So now basically my 2nd years 2nd sem -

I had like 11 Subjects in 1 sem.

I decided to attend 9.

7 - 2nd year subjects

4- 1st year(otherwise again year down)

Now in this sem I gave 9 paper. And Cleared 8 out of those.

But unfortunately the one that I couldn’t clear was 1st year paper.

It was my 21st bday and a nightmare fr.

Still my parents and my boyfriend stayed by my side.

Then at some point I made peace with it because this time i have my best. I tried.

So now , The Pune university said they will give carry on for students who have 1 subject remaining.( Basically we can give that 1st years paper in 3rd years 1st sem and then all remaining ones in 6th Sem basically)

But now the case is going on in court because someone opposed the decision of university.

I am stuck. Whole year i was thinking I had a chance to improve everything after messing up.

I have lose all hope.

I am so done with life.

I know it was all my mistake but I really wanted to improve it.

I Don’t even wanna tell my parents all this anymore.

I am sorry for any typos. Thank you for understanding.

I took admission in engineering (CSE) in 2022 , even though I wasn’t genuinely interested in the field.

In my first semester, I passed my mid-sem exams but failed all subjects in the end-sem. That’s where things started going downhill. I opened up to my parents, and they were supportive. I also started therapy.

In the second semester (July 2023), I seriously considered dropping out but couldn’t go through with it. I managed to clear only 2 out of 10 subjects, which resulted in a year down.

During the repeat year, in the first semester (December 2023), I didn’t appear for any exams. I was mentally struggling a lot and kept going back and forth on whether to quit engineering. My dad visited me and encouraged me to continue, saying that the year loss didn’t matter and that I should take my time.

Despite that support, my mental health was in a very bad place. I cried almost daily and had thoughts of ending my life, but I didn’t act on them because I knew my parents depend entirely on me.

Eventually, I decided to continue.

In the second semester after the year down (May 2024), I cleared 3 more subjects, even with minimal preparation.

I then moved to second year (July 2024). Things were relatively stable, and I cleared most of my remaining first year subjects, but I still got 2 backlogs from second year.

In my second year, second semester, I had to deal with 11 subjects in total (7 from second year and 4 from first year to avoid another year down). I chose to attempt 9 exams and managed to pass 8 of them.

Unfortunately, the one subject I failed was a first-year subject, which became critical.

That result came on my 21st birthday, and it was honestly devastating.

Still, my parents and my boyfriend supported me, and I tried to accept the situation because, for the first time, I had genuinely put in effort.

Recently, Pune University announced a “carry on” policy allowing students with one remaining subject to move forward and clear it in the next semester. This gave me hope that I could finally fix everything.

However, that decision is now under legal challenge in court, and its outcome is uncertain.

Right now, I feel stuck. After everything, I thought I finally had a chance to recover, but now that hope feels like it’s slipping away again.

Used AI to rephrase

Today morning my alarm went off and it disturbed my roommate, and she got really irritated and started shouting, which honestly didn't sit right with me. I get that alarms can be annoying, and I've already reduced using them and keep the volume low, but I don't think shouting or using that tone is okay. What's bothering me more is the double standard when I'm sleeping, she watches reels or talks on calls and that affects me too, but I've never reacted like that. There's also this other thing with a cooler we both own (we got it refunded so it was basically free). For the past couple of weeks, she was the one insisting that we should sell it, but I only found out she actually wants to keep it with her boyfriend during a random conversation with a friend when the friend suggested I take it since I'm moving nearby, that's when she mentioned her plan.

It just felt weird that she never brought it up to me directly. I also don't think it's fair for either of us to just keep it, which is why I even found a buyer willing to pay 1500 so we can split it. We only have about a month left living together, and I don't want drama, but I also don't want to keep letting things slide.

How would you handle this?

I really need advice on this because i am done letting things slide in.