Feeling the way I feel isn’t practical for my life anymore. In my family if Im not being the best masculine figure is having a bad effect on me and others around me.
I can’t help but think about the fact that my inactions have affected the quality of my relationships and responsibilities. I’ve found myself in the position of having to be a driving force for my immediate family if I don’t pick myself up out of my own selfish misery……At this point in my life I Im just not sure if what I want is good enough for a well and productive life.
Going forward with a higher expectation of myself is what makes the most sense for my own personal growth and benefit for my family.. I thought I could be more happy with being a softer more feminine person, but what’s dragging me down is my complacency and need to be taken care of…I can’t no longer think that way.. sometimes it’s needed for a person to take the initiative and make something better of themselves. I hope to get there someday. Starting from now I’ll be the best option for my future.
Please wish me luck.