TRIGGER WARNING. STOP READING IF YOU HAVE S TENDENCIES. Just. Don't.
Ako ung taong hndi mangungutang unless un na last resort ko, I always pay up, but this time, nawalan ng income and didn't expect na ngaun pa tlga na may due ako. This was the last straw, I have been suffering mentally--for years--10 palang ako I was already struggling with suicidal ideations, and now in my 30s, I still think about it everyday, ubos na'ko. Ayokong nangungutang kasi ayoko ng may utang na loob at lalong ayaw kong nang aagrabyado.
At, wala akong luho o bisyo, hndi rin ako materialistic--just saying kasi knowing how Pinoys think, baka may mag assume at mang judge, so pls...
I don't know why I felt the need to post this here. Baka kailangan ko lang ilabas somewhere that won't reach my family, for the last time.
At kung kayo ang inutangan, kung ngcocommunicate naman ung pinautang niyo at may good record naman in the past, a little grace pag humihingi ng extension sometines is a matter of life and death... take the person's overall character into account. Well, wag na magpautang at all siguro para walang sakit sa ulo. At sa nangangailangan, to avoid ending up like me, wag mangutang kung alam mong you're not mentally and emotionally stable.
I'm sorry you had to see this.
Take care of yourselves, Redditors.