Hello gang trying to improve my life but I have some mindset issues for sure that are keeping me stuck in avoidance and depressive thinking
These thoughts have become so obsessive in my head all my goals now feel completely pointless useless activities that have no meaning otyer than to stress me out trying to achieve and maintain them
1) always someone better
no matter how hard you try in life someone is always better than you, better looking, richer , happier , better relationship . I always seem to compare myself up and up all the way to the worlds richest man and end up feeling so small and demotivated to do anything in comparison , like my hardest grind for life will be a shitty life in comparison . I’ve destroyed past jobs and relationships by obsessing over how things aren’t good enough and need to improve , but I fear this will never end . It’s almost as if I cannot accept there are people much much better than me no matter what I do that will always be the case .
2) everything you strive for is ultimately forgotten and wiped away
What’s the point in doing anything at all when we’re all bound to die , the earth will eventually die , no matter what progress you make it’s wiped away no one will remember you etc in a cosmic sense is there any point in doing or striving towards any goal if it’s all wiped away? Why don’t we all devolve into baseless pleasure or carry on living lives filled with suffering in the moment for and end state of nothingness where all is wiped away ?
3) accepting that life is just work sleep start a family and die
what’s the point of having a normal life ? Work 9-5 every day if your lucky enough to have a job, live in a box that you own if your lucky enough have a partner start a family if your lucky enough retire get old and sick then die ? Seems horrible to me just inevitable suffering and stress to maintain and I don’t see the point in it? It genuinely baffles me how peole are happy with this and how like most of humanity don’t give up and do something …. Irreversible
Many thanks