does anyone else feel like their childhood was robbed from them?
I would like to start with the fact that I do not have a BPD diagnosis yet, but my therapist and psychiatrist are working on it. I’m not old enough to get a diagnosis but I fit into the criteria (according my therapist said).
Yesterday, during therapy I was rambling about family stuff, when I brought up the topic of how I think my childhood was ruined by how fast I had to mature while being little, feeling like I skipped some chapters of my childhood, which led me to being emotionally unstable. Then my therapist validated that and explained that my childlike behavior and how I express my emotions are all results of growing up too fast. She also said that in order to get better I need to work with my inner child.
I started crying about it, that I could’ve ended up without any problems and wouldn’t need to suffer now, but unfortunately that’s not the case. Growing up normal could’ve prevented all this pain that I’ve been feeling in my adolescence. It just seems unfair that others could live their lives normally without being crushed by their feelings on an everyday basis and ruining relationships with their loved ones.