I have panic attacks when I think about university.
I am 27 y.o.
I am 4 years late already.
I have 5 exams to go and I can't study or concentrate, my parents try so support me but are (rightfully) pressuring me to come to a conclusion with university.
Now we found out that we have 2k of payments from last year , and this year, I passed an exam last month with 26/30 after 6 months of trying and I finally found the motivation to finally ask my dad to pay, thinking those were this year taxes only, when I found out we were one year late I felt lost, head seems heavy , very heavy .
I have an exam on 20th and I am a lil behind on schedule but I can make it.
But I am right now lost. Very lost.
I often thought about committing something stupid, each time a lil more convinced of it.
I feel like a failure, every time, and I am.
I don't know how I am even typing this , I think this is a last ditch effort I guess?
I just wanted to be good, but I am not capable of it