u/Conscious_Wish_869

Im 18 years old. I’m currently on spring break and I already feel like I’m wasting time. Usually on weekends or breaks like this, I always tell myself to do other things, but I just never have the energy to do so and fall back on doing the same stuff.

This is how it goes. Monday–Thursday, I go to school. When I come home, I’m too drained and tired to do anything, so I either scroll on TikTok or watch YouTube, eat dinner, and go to bed. (If I have homework, I get it done.) Friday–Sunday, I just play games or scroll on TikTok and watch YouTube.

Now here’s the problem. There are shows that I started watching last year, and for some reason I still haven’t finished them. Every time it’s the weekend or a break like right now, I tell myself I gotta continue the show or watch a movie, but I just never do.

Since last year, I’ve been telling myself that I need to start exercising more and doing pushups so I can be strong and flexible. Last year, I added this workout video to my Watch Later, and I still haven’t done it.

There are a bunch of movies I wanna watch but just haven’t yet.

I started really liking this artist recently, and I told myself, “Let me listen to all of his albums!” Still haven’t done that.

There are a ton of songs that I started making on BandLab but never finished.

Sometimes I want to learn more about something, so I look it up and plan to get into it later. For example, in school I randomly heard something about “Social Science,” so I looked up what it was. I’m like, “Okay, this looks interesting, I’ll learn more about it later,” but I never go back to that tab on Google.

You see the problem? I know it’s 100% a me thing. Like today, instead of doing the things that I listed, all I did was get on the game, draw, and watch YouTube livestreams. I’m not sure if this is even laziness, because I usually don’t have a problem doing other stuff like homework or cleaning up. If I know I have to do those things, I’ll do them right away. I don’t know why I’m like this😭

So I made an Instagram account for the first time a few weeks ago. I followed my Class of 26 Highschool page and a lot of people from my school are showing up on my suggestions. I want to follow some of them but I’m not sure if it will come off as weird or creepy. After all, I’m just a guy with no friends and social anxiety.

I also have my real name on there so yeah.