u/Conscious_Cat_5366

I am still struggling a lot about if I'll even have kids, I know I have a lot of work to put in before beginning to try. But I absolutely do fantasize about having a little child a lot more. I always think about children under the age of 5 when I do.

I think I would much prefer to have a daughter, and I feel really bad for this. I have at least 5 potential names for a girl, but only 2 names for a boy. Whenever I imagine my future with kids, I force myself to imagine having a son because I really don't want to have such a preference.

Again I have a LONG way to go, but I always worry my desire to have a child isn't for the "right" reason.