u/Conscious-Two9531

Swerte ko kay di ko pareho sa uban na imprisoned sa marriage nga dili happy.

Pero gikapoy ko og date oi. Tanan nako na uyab puro man long term. Wa na unta ko plano mag date kay mas happy man ko wala'y laki.

Pero naa ko isa nga wa ko nag expect nga maganahan ko. As in ganahan kay ko niya. Mura mi uyab pero nag ask ko unsa amo buhat ana siya dili siya kahatag sa akong gusto.

Bisab kabalo ko ana padayon man japon mi kuyog og kita. Like kanang mura kog naadik. Wa sad ko plano makig minyo sa iyaha kay to be honest mismatch jud mi physically og financially. Pero ni settle ko to fill the void.

Maynta mahuman nani akong attraction niya. After ani tanan kay di nako mu entertain og laki.

I have resigned to the idea that I am a spinster at this age.

I am a 40 y.o woman. High achiever, successful, stable and able to have a family. However, I am exhausted in dating.

All my relationships are long term. I have explored dating apps, expanded my network outside work, opened myself and tried new things.

But all the men I was and went out with were all failed timing. Some are not capable of commitment, some were mismatch, and some were never aligned with me.

I am exhausted. I questioned myself that maybe there is something wrong with me.

Guys who are 12 years younger than me approached me , showed interest, asked me out but they just want a non - committal relationship.

I even settled to someone I know who doesn't deserve me but I gave him access to fill the void.

When all of this is settled and done. I will not be involved to anyone anymore.

I am exhausted.