Thinking about incidents from childhood. How bad is it?
I added sa tag but I don’t think it rlly is that
im 17, m(ftm, and I can’t stop thinking about these childhood things. I feel disgusted with myself and it makes me wonder if I’m an abuser. when I was little, I’m not sure what age but quite young (maybe 8 or younger), my little cousin introduced a game to me and my little brother (both two years younger than me).
In the game two of use laid down pretending to be sleeping beauty, and one of us would pretend to be the prince and kiss the other to wake the princess up and repeat. once I got a bit older I set the firm boundaries that I don’t think we should do it anymore, as I knew it was weird and wrong.
Another incendient, my older brother by four years kissed me on the lips. I think to make me disgusted, and I never thought much of it but now I remembered it.
I dont think anything happened other than that, but i feel I acted in other weird ways as a child, and now I know they’re not right I feel disgusted with myself that my first kiss was with my family. I don’t blame any of us exactly, we didn’t know it was bad, but now it’s just idk.