How to pull the metaphorical trigger
I am really struggling to get this over with… my (35M) and wife (34F) have been together for nearly 13 years. We have 3 young kids together and just cannot reconcile our differences on how to parent together and be a team/partners in love.
Every night is so miserable missing the woman I loved so much just sit in silence. I’ve tried to make things better and have given plans/ideas/etc but there’s just a huge lack of willingness and want to..
Im a very very active father, physically fit, easy to get along with, very educated and a very good job... I do more than 50% of the house work and at least 50% of the kids stuff and am always willing to take more off her plate if it makes her less frustrated…I say these things so you know this isn’t some “man child” scenario lol
I KNOW I want to move on and I want to be loved again and just desired… and nothing I do can change that here it seems and it breaks my heart. But for some reason I cannot pull the trigger even though I’ve mentioned it and don’t think she would even care really. I am just scared to officially split all of the assets but even moreso the kids and the trauma that will be inflicted at that age! My youngest is just the sweetest little baby and thinking about not seeing him and being the first one he sees every single day just absolutely guts me and I feel like I should just stay miserable because I just love them sooo much.
How do i do it? How do I get over those fears and realize being loved and my kids seeing that is equally important?