We have been together for over a year. Unfortunately, money issues have delayed us. It can't be helped. I try to make the effort every single day to keep us connected, he does not.
We game a lot. That's how we met, it's how we connect. 3 times this week, he's started streaming and playing a game we both play together. If I ask to join, I get flat out ignored.
Now, the problem is Im not going to get mad if he wanted to play solo, it's being completely ignored.
Especially in a group chat with friends, he asked someone to play the game with him, they said they were busy, so I said I can play with you - and I got ignored.
I have mentioned to him before that all I ask for is communication. If you want to be alone, say so. If you want to play with just friends, say so. I feel like it's not an unreasonable request.
It just makes me feel awful. As this happened before, when I asked him about it, he says he hates saying no to me - so he just flat out ignores me and that if he's in a bad mood or wants to be alone etc, I should work it out by the non response. And now it's happening again, I find it frustrating.
I help him financially and in any way i can, I'm the only one who can get a job, and moving and meeting will all be on me which I understood from the beginning but I'm starting to feel like it's all me making the effort and emotional connection. I've never asked for help financially, not that he can provide that, I just want that emotional connection.
It's getting tiring, and I'm finding myself getting frustrated and upset.
Idk. I just wanted to rant.