u/Confused_penguin804

I’m on day 10 off the FF and never want to go back. I medically detoxed and it helped get me off. The only thing is, I still have horrible tremors, can’t sleep and when I do go into the twilight zone - my body twitches violently to wake me up (it feels like racing adrenaline), and my palms are drenched in sweat 24/7….I’m very much not a functioning human-being.

I was wondering if anyone else experienced any of these symptoms. Mostly worried about the tremors, like as an alcoholic who sometimes it’s permanent even when they stop drinking.

EDIT: I feel like one of the worst parts about FF is there’s not much knowledge out there. My psychiatrist just subscribed a higher dosage of sleep meds, which didn’t help either. It was funny tho, my psych was googling it and was amazed that you can just buy it from a gas station.

Thank you!

I think I’m mostly looking for suggestions/guidance/understanding. I have been off these for 7 days! But I did go to a medical detox for help because I tried over and over and over to quit and just couldn’t.

Back story:
It started off probably how it does for everyone back in September (8 months of use - woah, can’t believe it was that long). At the end, I was drinking about 15-20 a day for the last week, but was violently throwing up multiple times a day so a good portion of those didn’t even make it in my system. The throwing up started awhile ago, and sometimes it would be right after drinking one, sometimes it would be randomly. I’m a recovering heroin addict (5+ years), so deep down I knew what I was doing, but did it anyway. I have this vivid memory before taking the first one that oh man, this is going to be really bad.

Getting off:
I went to the ER, and they checked me into a medical facility for a few days and basically pumped me up with Valium to get through the really hard first few days.

Effects:
My skin is destroyed, like it hurts how badly it’s cracking no matter how much I moisturized. I also have no energy whatsoever, and no desire to do anything, but I’m forcing myself to get out and be active. I also have terrible tremors, like my hands shake all the time. The biggest one is the sleep though!! I do take a sleep medication (Seroquel) and magnesium and not even that is helping, I will stay up all night no problem and not even be tired. I got really frustrated last night and did drink a bunch of alcohol to just knock myself out because I was going in 48 hours awake. Did anyone else have this experience with sleep? Be honest with me, what should I expect? Or do you have any advice?

I never, ever, ever want to go through this again. It destroyed my life more than heroin, which is insane that my dealer was a gas station.

Thank you so much!!!