u/Confused_Soul_Here

I know it’s a bold statement and I’m so sorry for even saying it. I never thought those words would come out of me.
I’m 23 (soon to be 24) and this is my first pregnancy to go this far (had two miscarriages last year, both before week 8) and I am now in week 11, will enter week 12 on Friday.
I have been feeling ill for all these weeks, I’ve thrown up, been dizzy to an extreme extent, I’m exhausted no matter what I do, have insane tinnitus, and even fainted twice out of nowhere.
I’ve told my boyfriend so many times “I hate being pregnant”, “We’re only having one child/adopting the others” and “I swear to God, if they find a way for men to be pregnant I’m signing you up ASAP”
Like I know how special this is but I never thought it would effect me so negatively. I’m tired and so ill that I cannot even work which makes me worry about our finances.
I’m so excited for this little baby and I’ve dreamt about this for so long, we both have. But I just feel so guilty for feeling this shit all the time, I’m worried that I’ll lose interest in the whole thing and it’ll affect how I see my baby later on (which I don’t think but is a worst case scenario)
Anyone else felt like this?