u/Confident_Mango7142

I have been having some terrible anxiety and depression attacks lately, I feel like I cant move and dont want to do anything at all, the only way for me is to take sleeping pills all the time so I numb the anxiety, offing myself crosses my mind but its like Im killing my mother with me cause that would absolutly destroy her..I need support, I need friends, I need any kind of help I could get.. I dont know why I ended up so lonely at 30, I used to be normal at some point..I dont know where to begin, I have no shoulder to cry on and Im suffering. What should I do? I do take meds and tried support groups but I couldnt continue..can anyone help me