I Want to Spend All My Savings on My FP So She Never Forgets Me
Does anyone else with BPD or strong attachment issues get the urge to spend a lot of money on their FP?
I’m currently unemployed and living with my parents, so money is tight. I’ve been saving some money for a long time as a security net, but lately I’ve had a really strong urge to spend all of it on an expensive gift for my FP.
Part of me knows this is impulsive and probably self-destructive, but another part of me feels like this is the only way to show her how much I care. Deep down, I think I want her to remember me forever, and buying her something expensive feels like a way to make that happen.
Have any of you experienced something similar? Did you go through with it, and if so, did it help at all? How do you deal with these kinds of urges when they feel so intense?