u/Confident_Bake_6615

D day was December of 2024. My husband of 20 years spent all of 2025 lying and pretending he wasnt watching porn. We went to 6 mths of therapy and I quit after finding out he had been lying the whole time. Last known watch of porn was in November of 2025. He got really good at deleting his history and using incognito. I turned on his digital wellbeing settings to track that way about 2 mths ago. I know. Super unhealthy for me. There has been nothing that I can tell for two months though. But still the feeling has persisted in me that he is still lying, still hiding. I got into an argument with him a few days ago. He is adamant that he is not watching porn. After a few days where I just gave up and stopped talking, he went out looking for a flip phone. He ended up coming home and ordering a cellphone from Amazon that has no wifi access at all. Just a basic phone. He told me he wanted me to be able move forward, that he wants us to move forward. I am surprised bc he loves Spotify and listening to audio books at work and is giving that up so that I can feel better.... I dont know how to feel honestly. I am reading The Betrayal Bind, which is helping me and what helped me through the last argument. One of the things she said in the book that really resonated with me is that I dont trust myself anymore and I can never trust him until I trust myself. That hit me like a freight train.