u/Confident-Wear-2262

i am emotionally dead inside im chopped i masturbate every single day the girl i had a crush on have a boyfriend and she doesn't even

acknowledge my existence i do not even know when was the last time i cried i feel alone and im afraid to die alone the last time i prayed was jumah prayer my mom used to scold me for going to the gym very early now i wake up at 12 pm yet despite all this my family is blessed and i got a really good result for my national exam im afraid allah might take away my life when im being filthy and i think i might be deppresed pls someone help me