u/Confident-Plant1030

We had a bad fallout where he wasn't willing to communicate. I'm finding it hard to focus on a happy ending because it makes me feel like I'm desperate and can't move on from him. And, that puts me in an anxious and a very sad/low vibrational (miserable) state. The only way I can feel better is by simply not thinking about him or thinking that he didn't deserve me, anyways. However, I keep getting haunted by some good/happy moments that put me a state of longing for brief moments where I have to fight myself out of.

For context- Only had been texting with sp for 1 month, met just twice. He was the first person I ever held hands with and was my first date, which was lovely BTW.

Please help!!!!

I'd been talking to my sp for a month, sometimes it would be for entire nights, others it would just be back and forth replies. After a month, he tells me that he isn't even sure if he can see us being a thing in the future. He would get busy for a few days in between which he would reassure me about it but later on, during our fallout he goes, "I thought we wouldn't work out so I was distancing myself." While he had told me that he was just very sick or busy.

When I think about this situation through the lense of EIYPO, his behaviour makes sense because I had been very anxious about this whole thing when we were talking but then all the hurtful feelings come in the way and I start to obssess over all the things that went wrong or I start to feel stupid for catching feelings this early on. (I hadn't known him prior to when we started talking, he had asked for my socials and that's when I got to know of his existence).

Now, I don't even know if I want to manifest him or just an apology from him or if I should just manifest someone entirely new out of thin air.