Want to experience highschool life in the PH as a dual citizen
Hi! I need advices regarding my plan. I was born and raised in the Philippines and moved here in the U.S. when I was 12. My adjustment to the culture, people, and everything was really hard and long-process. I got so homesick but I bounced back from it. But now that I’m 16, I’ve grown to be getting used to it and appreciate what U.S has to offer. However, I’ve been having such a FOMO these past few months since I realized that highschool here is vastly different from the highschool in the PH in terms of how friendly the people are, the vibes, and the humor. Seeing my friends in the Philippines enjoying their teenage years a lot make me feel so behind and left out. My school life here isn’t so great. It’s just the same routine everyday. Wake up, go to school, sleep, and so on. I do have friends but they are mostly those superficial and surface-level, and I’m yearning to have a deep connection and also a real circle of friends. It’s taking such a huge emotional toll in my mental health and I’ve became so emotionally aware and drained with how my life would have been different if I was in the Philippines surrounded with so many uplifting and positive people. I just really want to heal myself, redeem my self-esteem and confidence overall by making a lot of real connections and friends and feel at home where I can be freely be myself, which I can’t seem to find here. I want to finish highschool there and study nursing there as well and come back here to work since I’m already a dual citizen so it would be faster than other non-US citizens. I want to continue my last 2 years of highschool in Cebu City (far from our hometown) since I feel like that would be where I can find what I really want but my mom wouldn’t allow me, saying I’m too young to be living in a city alone (we do have relatives there tho). That was really my first option. She gave me a second option which is to study to our province hometown, however, that doesn’t sit right to me since I want freedom and I don’t want it to be appearing such a downgrade. I want to listen to what my heart is telling me but my mom and aunts are advising me otherwise. I’m so stressed out in deciding what to do since I don’t think I can handle wasting my teenage life here and not having anyone in the future to lean on. I need advices please ASAP. Thank you.