DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT ASKING FOR MONEY, I JUST REALLY NEED SOME HELP.
DISCLAIMER 2: I did get help once and my mental health did not allow me to keep it up.... It's my fault and I know it.
34 (M), with extensive health problems. Looking for a specialized dentist or organization that can help me plan how to deal with severe periodontal disease that I suspect can eventually be life threatening.
I will try to put things short but also into context, keep in mind, I need to tell you a lot about my life for you to get a grasp of the situation.
I was born in south America from a Spanish family (EU).
We never really had any money, for the record, and that is sadly still the case to this day.
I have been a smoker most of my life and still struggle to quit to this day. Last few years have been on/off.
I was born at 6 months old, with all sorts of issues and spent 2 weeks in an incubator where they pumped me with an insane amount of meds. For what I have been told, since I was born and in my early childhood, I have been given a ridiculous amount of antibiotics. I have no memory of this.
Ever since I remember my teeth have had issues. When I was a child my teeth had brown stains and were very frail. Not much was ever done, mostly just some whitening and some sort of plaster smeared all over my teeth whenever they were broken.
At around age 18 I started having gum disease, and needed to have my teeth deep cleaned, every 3 months or the tartar was too much to deal with. I'd usually go to a free dental clinic or when I could, I would snuck into some dental office that offered discounts for the elderly and kind of beg my way in.
I left my country at 23 years old and left for Europe after a sad incident in which I was a victim of a kidnapping... To put it short.
From here onwards things got bad. My mental health plummeted and I started to ignore everything in life. I stopped eating, sleeping, brushing my teeth, you name it, I did it (or didn't).
At 25 years old, I started having frequent mouth abscesses. I could not afford a dentist and my solution was to drain them myself at home. I started brushing my teeth more often, but this did not help anymore.
At 27 I arrived in Sweden for a summer job, ended up staying because I found love.
So, from there to now, when I came to Sweden I started to have feverish episodes. I would get fevers that would come and go for weeks. It was extremely hard to get seen because it was 2019, in the middle of the Covid situation and I was just here as a passerby. If you don't know it's almost virtually impossible to get a dentist appointment without a personal nummer and if you do, the cost is... Well... Luxurious.
So basically I spent months in agonizing toothache, and fever. Abcessess, etc.
I eventually managed to get an emergency appointment and was then seen by a dentist, in like, 15 minutes, because you know. Basically it was like a favor. He saw me at lunchtime and told me my situation was very, very urgent.
From there on I have seen multiple dentists and several other doctors.
What is relevant now:
3 years ago I was hospitalized because of myocarditis and endocarditis 2 weeks after I had a dental abscess drained by a dentist. The doctors still think it was because of a viral infection but I think otherwise, and I deeply believe that bacteria from mouth night have caused the episode.
The Recovery from that heart issue took 8 months.
During this recovery my mental health took a big hit. It reached the point of self harm but thanks to the patience and love of my sambo, I got help.
I was diagnosed with PTSD and severe depression which I still fight to this day.
When my heart got better and I could walk outside again (literally). I sought help In a specialized department in a. Hospital.
I did get help I saw a fantastic doctor there.
I have been told my condition is very likely to be genetic.
No one knows what the Fuck was wrong with my teeth as a child, there are no records.
I have been told I suffer from severe bone loss around my teeth, and that I have severe periodontal disease.
I have been told I have the teeth of a 70 years old.
I have been told that the only solution for my teeth is to use a special type of brushes to deal with the disease. (To put it short)
However.. over the last years i have completely stopped my treatment. My head had been cloudy again and my energy down, and the Last thing I wanted was to stab myself with these brushes and bleed allover and suffer it trough (it is actually a very painful thing to do). And yes, more excuses.
The point of all this is, I think the story is relevant because: if you are not a dentist, this serves a cautionary tale, take care of yourselves or else.... And if you are a dentist, I guess it's all good Information (?).
So, now, to the reason I write this post...
I want to give my teeth a chance to get better. I want to get back to my treatment but I have neglected them so much again that everything is bad again.
I really need to have my teeth cleaned in order to get my treatment started again. But I really need a dentist that knows how to deal with an extremely frail mouth. I am writing this with an abscess in my mouth at the moment. And we are not doing very well in the financial department so I cannot go to an emergency sadly.
No, I don't want money.
I just really need someone that can help me plan and schedule a cleaning to which I can save money for and know that by the end of it I can start the painful treatment again.
I don't really know anymore why am I even writing this, it's 5 am and cannot Sleep.
Thank you for reading.