u/ConclusionPlayful992

I’ve been with my partner for working on 4 years, the first 2 were great but it’s been up and down since then. We have differing opinions on the major topics marriage and children. We’ve also had other issues with each others attitudes. Mine being that she’s always negative and making anything possible an issue and talking down to me. She also likes to throw out an insult that she’s known since day 1 puts me down. We’ve both been checked out for a while and I’ve been trying to mentally prepare for it and thought about my life without her. A month ago we talked and decided we should separate for real as in the past we’ve talked about it but then moved on like nothing happened. She initiated it somewhat randomly after I felt we had made good progress. Part of me is relieved but also sad and don’t want to let go. She keeps saying she doesn’t know what to do and it’s not what she wants but what needs to happen and wants a breakup but with the end goal of being back together in the future. We also have a place together and neither of us can afford it alone. Would I be the asshole if I just moved out to my parents and did me for the summer and reevaluated things in the fall?