Emotionally unavailable just trigger me
I swear! I really have been working on myself these past few years to take things slow and not go all in, but emotionally unavailable people just tugs at my abandonment and lonely wound. The way that I grew up avoiding my feelings and being parentified by my mom, my caregiver instincts also become triggered… by wanting and giving more without return. No matter how busy I am, I still want to be at least considered or talked to and ofc not everyone can but it’s usually those who are unavailable that can’t communicate about it.
I don’t know if this feeling is universal, but damn! People who don’t have the capacity or consistency to keep a conversation/ bond building just annoy me. I’m trying to just walk away and not fight for it, but I get attached so quick that the pacing is hard. I don’t know..