Ended a long term relationship.
So i am 30 and just ended a 5 year long relationship. It wasn’t good for me and it was making me feel smaller and smaller by the day. I wanted to ask if women went through this, eventually found happiness? How did you prevent yourself from going back?
Disclaimer: it was a really difficult situation for me to get out of
edit for more insight that i feel brave enough to share now-
he always told me people stare at me not because i am pretty but because i am fat. He called me a dog because i sent him a message saying, i miss u already, right after he left. There were several periods in our relationship where he would randomly STOP responding. And that would throw me into a phase of wondering crying reaching out asking what happened?did i do something wrong? And he would still not respond I lost my job this year, i think a large part of it was this relationship. It took so much of my time and i was so nervous all the time. Always on flight mode. I got fired and even then i found myself thinking-“at least this is better than him breaking up with me” i am lost. I am broken by this man. I have friends i can talk to but i am an inherently introverted person and i dont want to burden anyone. Everyone told me he was wrong and i did not listen. And even now i continue to feel bad. Like my heart is hurting so very much and i do not know what is going to happen to me