Is it fine that I see my girlfriend both as a partner, and a maternal figure?
So, the title should be self-explanatory. I'm a guy (prefer not to share my age) who grew up in a verbally and emotionally abusive household. My mother has severe anger issues, so I never really felt loved as a child. Right now, I'm with my girlfriend (we're in a long distance relationship though), and I've been relying on her lately as a maternal figure. She's only three years older than me, so she could also be something of an older sister, but it feels more maternal to me. Of course, I feel guilty about putting the burden and pressure on her by relying on her this way, but she always says she's fine with it, and she allows it because it's also what she wants. She didn't grow in a proper household either, and in a way, she says being like a mother to me is healing her too.
Don't get me wrong, I love my girlfriend. I don't rely on her so much that she has to treat me like a baby. I'm there for her too when she needs me. But the thing is, I'm more safe with her than with my own family. I love her much more than I love my own mother. I see her both as a partner, and as a maternal figure. I just want to know if it's actually "alright" for me to feel this much for my girlfriend.