Anyone get tired?
Whole Foods paleo salmon for dinner. Dieting is fun.
I’m so tired these days. Late 30s, no house no kids. Living essentially paycheck to paycheck. Trying to change that but earlier actions are stopping me from progressing in the field I transitioned too.
Girlfriend of eight years mutually broke up a couple months ago as we are toxic together. By now though it feels like I am too late with life. Too old and too poor to support a family. All I can think about is how tired I am, I truly don’t know if I have the energy to push and make up the time I wasted.
Doing all the things. Working out, eating well, journaling, but I’m so lonely. At the same time I know I can’t pursue a serious relationship as I just don’t make enough money. Forget a house, that ship sailed with Covid in the hcol area I’m in. In a way it’s freeing to voluntarily take yourself off the dating market.
I applied for two jobs that would have been a step up in responsibility and massive step up in pay, and was rejected by both. Main one wouldn’t say why and can’t reapply for three years. That one kind of broke me as I had waited for years to apply. Haven’t really been able to regain any sense of optimism for the future since.
Anyone else just get tired, like in their soul? All I can think about is how tired I am, just mentally tired. What’d you do to get back? It takes about three hours in the gym a day to quiet the thoughts, and I don’t have that time everyday with work.
Apologies for the stream of conscience randomness. Don’t really have any friends and the ones I do have I don’t want to bring them down / be a pessimistic cancer. But I also can’t shake how tired I am.