AIO for being conflicted about choosing my sister over my dad?
I am still extremely conflicted on this topic. For context my sister is 10 years older than me and not my dad's biological child (but she is related to us). Our parents were married for a few years before getting divorced because of somethings my Dad did. Due to his actions I was not allowed to keep in contact with her and he was sent to prison for 7 years. My family was very against the idea of me ever contacting her. I did listen to them for a very long time till I decided a few months ago during a depressive episode to do it anyway. I will never regret reaching out to her, bringing her back into my life has genuinely opened my eyes more to the negative side of my dad's side and I will forever choose her in a heart beat. I do love my dad but he was gone for my life for 7 years and we aren't close like we used to be when i was younger. He has tried to guilt trip me and tried to bribe me in the past but I've always ignored it. My problem with this situation is that I feel like a terrible daughter for choosing a "stranger" over my dad. I hate having to hide this big of a secret from my family but I don't regret it. My sister and I are practically just as close as we used to be and she continues to support me and never tries to manipulate me. I will be disowned when my family finds out but I honestly wouldn't be too upset because it is the consequences of my own actions. The way i feel when I'm talking with my sister is drastically different compared to the way i feel around my dad and with the things he did i genuinely can't see me being able to live around him with out wanting to throw up. I genuinely can't tell if I'm a bad daughter for not listening to my father or family but i also can't bring myself to ever regret my choices or actions. I don't know how to feel about this.