I grew up in a very academic family of lawyers and teachers. Growing up, everyone around me thought that I would grow up to study something prestigious and excel in my field. Instead I’m graduating college this year as a film studies major and minor in animation. I feel like such an idiot. I have minimal prospects and I feel like I’m at a dead end. I can barely imagine a future for myself.
I was diagnosed with cancer in HS and again in College and I think it completely fucked me up. I think if I’d had that extra time to think I might have made a better choices. Maybe I would have gone to a school and studied something that would have made my family proud, something that matters. Maybe if I’d had time last year instead of being in chemo I would have switched majors and done something important. Instead of being a FILM major.
I feel so selfish. Why am I wasting everyones time. I’m to proud to quit now. I just feel like I’m constantly disappointing everyone.