I (27F) tested positive for gHSV1 back in January. I handled it well in the beginning but now I feel like I’m spiraling. I’m still with the guy who gave it to me (he was asymptomatic & not aware). I’ve started to feel dumb for staying with him. He’s a great guy and treats me well but part of me feels like I’m with him out of fear of never finding someone who will accept me with the diagnosis.
I’m Black and date within my race for the most part & hsv is just not talked about it our community and if it is it’s with a negative connotation so again scared that I won’t find anyone.
On top of that I just feel gross (I know I’m not) but the more I sit with it the more I’m like “wow you really went and got herpes”. Just feeling hopeless rn & wanted to vent. Would love some encouragement!