Problem/Goal:
I’ve been in a relationship with my girlfriend for 12 years now.
She’s my first girlfriend. My prom date. My high school sweetheart.
I love her. Dami namin pinagdaanan. Pero ngayong palapit na kami sa 30s, mas mature and stable na.
Masaya kami pareho. Close nya buong family ko. She always posts about me. She’s happy to have me.
Context:
But one day, nagising nalang ako na naccurious what it’s like to explore, to talk to other people.
Given na she’s my first girlfriend, biglang nagsilabasan yung curiosity ko.
Buong buhay ko, sakanya umikot yung mundo ko. Sya lang yung minahal ko.
I just wonder. Nasa thoughts lang. Wala akong ginagawang kahit ano. Wala akong balak magcheat.
Lately, naiisip ko lang yung mga what ifs ko and mga naging could have beens. Naccurious ako.
PLEASE DON’T REPOST. I restructured my post kasi baka may magscreenshot and may makakilala sakin.
Previous Attempts: N/A
P.S.
I love my girlfriend. Di kami magtatagal if di namin mahal isa’t isa. Many people can attest to how much I love her.
Bigla ko lang din talaga to naisip bigla.
Natatakot ako kasi parang 2 months ko na tong najisip.
Pag nakikinig ako ng songs, di na sya yung naiisip ko.
Pano pag di ako makaalis sa gantong phase? Need advice po sana.
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UPDATE: A lot has been asking sino naiisip ko sa songs. I’d be honest:
Nag-away kasi kami ng girlfriend ko a few months ago. Vulnerable ako that time.
Then nalaman ng friend ko na single ako, tapos niloko nya ako dun sa dating nagkakacrush sakin na sakto, single rin. Tapos nakita ko the girl was stalking me even my LI profile so mas napaisip ako.
Dun nagstart mga what ifs.
Pero I barely know that person. We talked dati and it was fun. Ayun lang memory ko of her. Not a big deal.
Mas invested ako dun sa idea of what ifs and could have beens.