it’s my first time posting here and english is not my first language so please bear with me.
i don’t have the right words to describe what i am feeling right now but i’m trying my best. it’s my birthday today (19th) and i know it’s still early and it might just be my insecurity speaking and yes, it might sound immature but no one has ever greeted me yet—not even my partner, my family or even my friends.
i don’t blame them, they have their own things and situations going on right now, i just didn’t know who to talk to. i hate myself for setting expectations even on the simplest things like greetings, i hate that i wanted to be surrounded even with the smallest things and i hate that i allow myself to feel this insecure.
i am not asking if this is valid or not, i just want to be heard and maybe, i’m also afraid that if i ever opened this up to someone they might just think i’m being dramatic over a greeting. i tried avoiding the feeling but everytime i open my socials, it hits me that my inbox is empty.