u/ComfortInAbsence

Even tho I have some friends, which i dont think really give a fuck about me since they only talk to me face to face but never actually reply or send messages, I do wanna pull away. I dont like the situation i am in, I feel more alone than ever the past days. I dont go out, no one invites me but I do see and hear that my friends do go out(not as a group, individually). I brother has stated multiple times how miserable I am from making friends like them. I remember I only had and have one true friend but he moved to another city. To every friend group I have been in, either they would make fun of me, ignore me or give enough attention so I can complain. I feel worthless evrytime I speak bad about them because of how angry they make me

Yeah, i just finished watching a silent voice. It was great, my first time watching animated too, so great start. Anyways, my problem is that the movie reminded me that I dont have a good relationship with my friends, I always feel and act some type of way that is affecting my relationship with them, I have very few that I know they are my friends and I like them. I tried for years to change myself so I would like the new me, but turns out I dont myself at all, whatever I do. I dont know what else to do, I feel so alone yet I have enough people in my life to get out of my misery or not, thats not for me to decide. I dont wanna be ungrateful but what else can I do, I feel this pressure so much for years now. My best friend moved 3 years ago, even tho we are still in contact and our bond stronger than ever its just not the same.