u/Colin_Zeal0

I know you may thing "We'll yeah, many artist never get to become popular" but I'm really glad and i hope i never be popular in my lifetime

I think it's really good that i can make any music i like from lo-fi rock and trip hop to salsa and Caribbean type music or even circus music and don't have to be ruled or under the pressure of "Oh god, i have to do this to become popular" or "I have to keep the same quality"

I love that

I'm releasing music, I'm releasing my fifth album of the year (official, I've done eight in total but the other 3 i made are just saved for the moment and the other 4 are available now) and i thought about what I'm telling on this post

I think the media and society sold the idea that the ultimate goal is fame or money and although it's a pretty reasonable and logical goal it's good to just throw it away

Would i be happy if i become a popular artist? I don't know, maybe

It's my goal? Absolutely not

It's amazing to do art, it's a wonderful thing and I'm greatful for being able to express anything this way

What's your opinion on the subject? Is it one of your goals or are you just going with it as a hobby?

Now this is the story of a little man

He works when it's late at night

And he sleeps all the darn day

The he wakes and tries again

Doesn't have a friend nor a single goal

It's a pickaxe on a mine of coal

There's no meaning on his life not a single one

A broken man with a thousand wounds

Can't you see?

He always bleeds

And his eyes

He's lost and blind

When the night becomes the day you'll see the light

But he looks at his nightstand

He stumbs across the room just to get his pills

Just to avoid a heart attack

A colder sip of water and another pill

He's not free and nothing is

Anxiety is real just that not for him

He can't aford something like it

When he cries

And there's no one

He holds himself now

You would let go at once

And the time starts to scarce

And it has gone to his head

He knows it's too late now

But there's nothing else to say

A long life that never started

A long life all by himself

Everything that serves

Always comes to an end

Originally a song but i converted it into a short poem/story

Hope ye like it x

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/XPt3xaMcDM

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/a0UnnzIzX6

I decided I'm doing it or at least trying to because i think I'm on a no return point

I'm dealing with so much anxiety, insecurities and paranoid thoughts that are breaking me

Been busy with my music and released my 4th album of the year because i can only think about sounds that evolve into music and songs immediately and sometimes those sounds are so loud that i can't hear other people even when i know they're only on my head, it's invasive

I'm going to start therapy again but i already know what's going to happen and I'm fine with it, whatever it takes to get better

I'm just waiting for it because i need to save money to cover the expenses of it