Worst news at anatomy ultrasound💔
On wednesday two days ago I went to my anatomy ultrasound on what was supposed to be 19 weeks and 4 days. For days before I had had a bad feeling without any reason, I was physically fine, but I dreaded it. As soon as she took the probe around even I could see it looked wrong. She said something like: Something has gone wrong, I'll go get a doctor to look at it.
The doctor came and looked. He said there is no amniotic fluid and no heartbeat. He showed what was supposed to be the head.
It was not in the shape of a head.
He said it must have happened some time since the last time I had an ultrasound.
That was 24 march.
For maybe 6 weeks I've had my dead son in me and not known.
I must have leaked out the amnioic fluid, he said, little by little. I remember I had an incident were there came some clear fluid and I freaked a little. But it wasn't too much and I rationalized it as discharge or I peed myself or something.
At first they said they wanted to do the procedure the same day, but I guess they didn't have space for me, they told me to come back monday morning to get admitted and gave me some pills. The first one I take tomorrow on saturday.
So now I wait.
I've never has this happen to me before, this is my first pregnancy. I even got pregnant on the first try so I have zero experience.
I feel so naive and stupid now, but I genuinely thought I was fine at 19 weeks.
I hope it won't be too painful.