u/Cold_Parsnip_1707

Relapsed

Guys I'm genuinely tired, this changed from being a biweekly thing, maybe monthly, to every day, I really can't.

I ran out of ideas, I have a serious lack of consistency reading the Bible, and a serious lack of consistency praying, when I have time to do it, I'm alone, at night and then it happens, I have tried to shift my schedule and wake up earlier and sleep at night but it does not work, I want to tell a family member but I honestly don't trust they will take it in an understanding way, I'm tired guys.

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u/Cold_Parsnip_1707 — 6 days ago

U may try to get a bit technical.

private

dns servers

proxy servers

firewalls

hosts files

can be a network or operating system level block mechanism that you can use to make it way way harder for you to consume the content you want to avoid, it requires technical knowledge, but nowadays it's easy to find a full tutorial on YouTube

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u/Cold_Parsnip_1707 — 10 days ago

I'm a busy man, im working pretty much all the time and that keeps me busy, but on the quiet times I find myself thinking, not about the heavy stuff because I notice and I try to stop it, but about the things that are still let's say sfw, things that you can find on google search that wouldn't even be blocked by safe search, but that I would only look for after giving myself to my lust, it's like I'm firing excuses to my motivation in the background until one of those manages to go past my determination to stay clean, any thoughts?

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u/Cold_Parsnip_1707 — 10 days ago

Hello brothers, I was hearing a sermon today at my local church and they talked about how the sheep are not lonely creatures but they need to be in a group, and how the shepherd guides the entire group, also they talked about the prodigal son and how he decided to go back after messing up and his father received him with love. I also remembered another sermon saying that we will never going to be able to grow alone.

I didn't know what to do but I knew something had to change, and I needed to do something really different.

I had not told anyone because I was afraid of being judged, but it was different.

I received understanding words, and loving advice, I received encouragement.

we prayed and he advised me to trust God to deliver me.

I tell you this because for years I felt like my life was going to end if I told someone, but the work of God in my heart and this community have taught me that we need others to succeed. Don't cling to the image you may think you have, God knows better, after praying I felt normal, but I have a warm sensation in my chest and now I really think and feel I can do this.

Stay blessed

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u/Cold_Parsnip_1707 — 12 days ago

Hi brothers, due to my recent relapse I'm using "extreme" measures to keep myself clean,

my last streak was aided by having no access to the websites that make me fall, and the streak was broken when I removed the blocks trusting that "nah, I won't do that again, I can trust myself" jajaja we all know how that ends every time.

WARNING: this process can be very hard to undo, so you need to get it right the first time, if you do this but you forget to add a website you know you shoud not go into, it will be extremely hard to change.

enough introduction, this will be a bit technical but I'll try to make it simple.

On windows there is a file called "hosts" that the operating system checks before redirecting you to any website, we can use this file to prevent access to any website across the entire system, so even if you download a new browser, it won't work, which is awesome for people like me, and probably like you.

What we will do in this guide is:

  1. Modify the hosts file so it blocks undesired websites

  2. Make a test

  3. Remove any permission to modify or delete the file so the changes are as permanent as possible (it would require real determination to get past this, hopefully that's enough friction to disencourage most of us from even trying)

step 1 (Locate the hosts file)

go to this route on your file explorer
C:\Windows\System32\drivers\etc

you will find a file without any extension called hosts, Make a copy on your desktop

step 2 (adding the block list)

open the copy you just made with the notepad or any text editor,

at the end of the file start adding the websites you wish to block using this exact format

127.0.0.1 example.com

127.0.0.1 example2.com

it is important that you keep the 127.0.0.1 at the beginning of each new line.

you can also add this

# Blocks alternate search engines

127.0.0.1 www.duckduckgo.com

127.0.0.1 duckduckgo.com

127.0.0.1 www.yandex.com

127.0.0.1 yandex.com

127.0.0.1 www.brave.com/search

127.0.0.1 search.brave.com

# Forces safe search on google (yeah I'm messed up so I did this and it's awesome!)

216.239.38.120 www.google.com

216.239.38.120 google.com

216.239.38.120 www.google.com.gt

216.239.38.120 google.com.gt

I also strongly recommend adding this lines, if you know what a proxy is you will want to block those too

127.0.0.1 www.croxyproxy.com

127.0.0.1 croxyproxy.com

127.0.0.1 www.proxysite.com

127.0.0.1 proxysite.com

127.0.0.1 www.hide.me

127.0.0.1 hide.me

127.0.0.1 www.kproxy.com

127.0.0.1 kproxy.com

127.0.0.1 www.whoer.net

127.0.0.1 whoer.net

127.0.0.1 www.megaproxy.com

127.0.0.1 megaproxy.com

127.0.0.1 www.proxfree.com

127.0.0.1 proxfree.com

127.0.0.1 www.filterbypass.me

127.0.0.1 filterbypass.me

127.0.0.1 www.genmirror.com

127.0.0.1 genmirror.com

127.0.0.1 www.zalmos.com

127.0.0.1 zalmos.com

127.0.0.1 www.hidester.com

127.0.0.1 hidester.com

127.0.0.1 www.blockaway.net

127.0.0.1 blockaway.net

be mindful, you are playing against yourself, turn every rock and put on every single website that you know it can be even mildly harmful, videos, pics, mangas, animation, ai, videogames, everything, your plan A, B, C and Z to consume evil stuff, even the softcore stuff, just put al in, maybe use ai to give you a list in case you don't remember something, this is a dangerous step because it can make you fall but if you are really struggling to get past a couple of days, this is a real way to make it very hard for yourself to fall again.

step 3 (make a test)

copy this new hosts file to the original directory

C:\Windows\System32\drivers\etc

and replace the existing file with the new one

now open your browser, any browser and try to get into any of those, it won't work, ain't that cool!

step 4 (remove access)

Now this is the part where it gets real, you won't be able to undo this in an easy way so make sure you hosts file is filled, mine has like 400 lines, cuz I know myself,

be honest, this is a real tool that can help you

now that you have built this amazing wall against those rotten resources

  • Right-click hosts > Properties > Security tab > Advanced.
  • Click Change (next to Owner: at the top).
  • Type SYSTEM > OK. (this will change the ownership of the file to Windows itself, that way you won't be able to undo what we will do next)
  • Click Disable inheritance > Remove all inherited permissions from this object.
  • Click Add > Select a principal > type Everyone > OK.
  • Set Type to Allow and check Read & execute. (so that it keeps working)
  • Click Add again > Select a principal > type Everyone > OK.
  • Set Type to Deny. Click Show advanced permissions.
  • Check: Write, Delete, Change permissions, and Take ownership.
  • Click OK on all windows.

step 5 (final test):

now if you try to delete the file, it won't let you, if you try to change the permissions again, it won't let you, and you are blocked out to those sites, at least on pc.

I know this is not the ultimate answer, but I think it is an important step forward to set some real hard to break walls.

I hope this is helpful for someone, if you have questions let me know, I'll be glad to help.

Stay blessed.

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u/Cold_Parsnip_1707 — 13 days ago

Hi brothers, due to my recent relapse I'm using "extreme" measures to keep myself clean,

my last streak was aided by having no access to the websites that make me fall, and the streak was broken when I removed the blocks trusting that "nah, I won't do that again, I can trust myself" jajaja we all know how that ends every time.

WARNING: this process can be very hard to undo, so you need to get it right the first time, if you do this but you forget to add a website you know you shoud not go into, it will be extremely hard to change.

enough introduction, this will be a bit technical but I'll try to make it simple.

On windows there is a file called "hosts" that the operating system checks before redirecting you to any website, we can use this file to prevent access to any website across the entire system, so even if you download a new browser, it won't work, which is awesome for people like me, and probably like you.

What we will do in this guide is:

  1. Modify the hosts file so it blocks undesired websites

  2. Make a test

  3. Remove any permission to modify or delete the file so the changes are as permanent as possible (it would require real determination to get past this, hopefully that's enough friction to disencourage most of us from even trying)

step 1 (Locate the hosts file)

go to this route on your file explorer
C:\Windows\System32\drivers\etc

you will find a file without any extension called hosts, Make a copy on your desktop

step 2 (adding the block list)

open the copy you just made with the notepad or any text editor,

at the end of the file start adding the websites you wish to block using this exact format

127.0.0.1 example.com

127.0.0.1 example2.com

it is important that you keep the 127.0.0.1 at the beginning of each new line.

you can also add this

# Blocks alternate search engines

127.0.0.1 www.duckduckgo.com

127.0.0.1 duckduckgo.com

127.0.0.1 www.yandex.com

127.0.0.1 yandex.com

127.0.0.1 www.brave.com/search

127.0.0.1 search.brave.com

# Forces safe search on google (yeah I'm messed up so I did this and it's awesome!)

216.239.38.120 www.google.com

216.239.38.120 google.com

216.239.38.120 www.google.com.gt

216.239.38.120 google.com.gt

I also strongly recommend adding this lines, if you know what a proxy is you will want to block those too

127.0.0.1 www.croxyproxy.com

127.0.0.1 croxyproxy.com

127.0.0.1 www.proxysite.com

127.0.0.1 proxysite.com

127.0.0.1 www.hide.me

127.0.0.1 hide.me

127.0.0.1 www.kproxy.com

127.0.0.1 kproxy.com

127.0.0.1 www.whoer.net

127.0.0.1 whoer.net

127.0.0.1 www.megaproxy.com

127.0.0.1 megaproxy.com

127.0.0.1 www.proxfree.com

127.0.0.1 proxfree.com

127.0.0.1 www.filterbypass.me

127.0.0.1 filterbypass.me

127.0.0.1 www.genmirror.com

127.0.0.1 genmirror.com

127.0.0.1 www.zalmos.com

127.0.0.1 zalmos.com

127.0.0.1 www.hidester.com

127.0.0.1 hidester.com

127.0.0.1 www.blockaway.net

127.0.0.1 blockaway.net

be mindful, you are playing against yourself, turn every rock and put on every single website that you know it can be even mildly harmful, videos, pics, mangas, animation, ai, videogames, everything, your plan A, B, C and Z to consume evil stuff, even the softcore stuff, just put al in, maybe use ai to give you a list in case you don't remember something, this is a dangerous step because it can make you fall but if you are really struggling to get past a couple of days, this is a real way to make it very hard for yourself to fall again.

step 3 (make a test)

copy this new hosts file to the original directory

C:\Windows\System32\drivers\etc

and replace the existing file with the new one

now open your browser, any browser and try to get into any of those, it won't work, ain't that cool!

step 4 (remove access)

Now this is the part where it gets real, you won't be able to undo this in an easy way so make sure you hosts file is filled, mine has like 400 lines, cuz I know myself,

be honest, this is a real tool that can help you

now that you have built this amazing wall against those rotten resources

  • Right-click hosts > Properties > Security tab > Advanced.
  • Click Change (next to Owner: at the top).
  • Type SYSTEM > OK. (this will change the ownership of the file to Windows itself, that way you won't be able to undo what we will do next)
  • Click Disable inheritance > Remove all inherited permissions from this object.
  • Click Add > Select a principal > type Everyone > OK.
  • Set Type to Allow and check Read & execute. (so that it keeps working)
  • Click Add again > Select a principal > type Everyone > OK.
  • Set Type to Deny. Click Show advanced permissions.
  • Check: Write, Delete, Change permissions, and Take ownership.
  • Click OK on all windows.

step 5 (final test):

now if you try to delete the file, it won't let you, if you try to change the permissions again, it won't let you, and you are blocked out to those sites, at least on pc.

I know this is not the ultimate answer, but I think it is an important step forward to set some real hard to break walls.

I hope this is helpful for someone, if you have questions let me know, I'll be glad to help.

Stay blessed.

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u/Cold_Parsnip_1707 — 13 days ago

Brothers, after 20 days I let the urges win and I dishonored myself and my God, can not keep this going, it is not what I want, I want to ask someone please to team up and check on ourselves daily, I really want to beat this beast. it would be awesome if the timezones somehow matched, now is 2:30 am with me, (yeah I really messed up...)

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u/Cold_Parsnip_1707 — 14 days ago

(forget it, something about the other post was wrong I guess) I am banned or something, I just wanted to let what happened out of my system, probably should be praying instead of ignoring him longer, guys I messed up today, It is ridiculous, I want to tell my mom but, I don't want to break her heart

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u/Cold_Parsnip_1707 — 14 days ago