u/Cold-Mastodon5256

I just got out of my Benzo addiction but a couple of hours ago I took approximately 50mg Clonazepam because I feel so lonely and depressed and have no one to talk to. I fear that I will have withdrawal symptoms again in a couple of days. I still have 100 pills prescribed but I don't know if I have the self control to dose it right. I have no friends, anime or tv shows don't distract me and I'm always sad. I don't want to go to therapy or to a drug rehabilitation clinic. I just want to get a job and live a normal life. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm thinking about suicide all the time but I'm too afraid. I feel so helpless.