u/Coiled_Adversary

Hello,

I am looking to bring my fantasy swashbuckling adventure to life! I want one character in an action scene (pirate/wild west theme). I already have the song title and story, but i'm flexible in developing the ideas with you. Not looking for commercial use, just posting on Youtube and Instagram.

I'd love to work with you!

For the past two years I've been doing great handing my bipolar. So, I've been noticing all the persistent things that have come from it. Recently I noticed music is one of my triggers. Especially uplifting music. I remember years back I would repeat the same song over and over again for hours. Now, I know this just manic obsession. Ever since I was a teen I tried to make music (metal), but I've always failed. My manic hyper focus allowed me to learn metal guitar quite well (I can sweep pick, tremolo, play fast), but I am just a bad musician. I haven't written a completed song in my entire life. Usually when I try to write music I just get stuck on a riff for hours and cannot develop it. Then I give up. Get another idea and then try and fail at it.

Maybe music just isn't for me. Its been over 18 years trying to do this. I have at tops 2 songs I have written. I do have other passions--like writing and reading. Those calm me down and ground me. Music proves to be too overbearing for me. At most I think I can only listen to music maybe 3 hours a day without it leading me into hypomania.

Any else can relate? Im sad, but if this is the case then I focus on something else....im not sure if its a case of me trying enough.