u/Coffeemelon2

I have been suffering for half a year and have been constantly trying to get any kind of help for months. I’ve talked with my doctor, seen a psychiatrist, tried reaching out to my friends, and today I just saw a therapist. No one fucking cares. Do I have to actually hurt myself to get any kind of diagnosis? Any kind of support? I have been having severe depressive episodes constantly, I barely have any kind of energy to do anything, and a few weeks ago I was having anxiety attacks so bad I was left paralyzed on the ground. Do you need to have not shit parents to actually get any kind of professional help? because I have no idea how to navigate these systems and I have no idea what else to do. I just had to remember awful memories and divulge a lot of personal things to that therapist and now I’m left panicked and disheveled as nothing got done and I have to wait a month for the next appointment. It really feels like the only people that can get support are people who already have support systems, something I’ll probably never have. I feel completely hopeless and alone, and I am so sure that things will never get better. I have no idea what to do