Lots of us daydream about hitting the lottery. Not many people wish to do so they can go live in isolation and drink unbothered in a quant, quiet room.
When I hit the big powerball, I would immediately:
Dump everyone close to me and give $1million to shut up about it and leave me alone.
Buy a small studio in a busy city. I become anonymous here. No need for being super remote, I just need a door that locks and to be 24/7 close to booze if i need it.
For health, I'd have a nurse come and give me an IV bag as i need it for nutrient deficiencies.
I'd hire a personal assistant who is paid enough to not judge. He'd fetch me drugs and alcohol. I'd need stimulants to drink in the way I want to drink.
I'd have a bar ready for me. It's on the counter right by my bed. All of which is also close to the toilet. Everything needs to be within 30 feet.
And that's it. I go on benders for as long as I can stand. Then go dry out at some sort of fancy rich person detox place I am sure exists. These are just done to prepare and repair the body for the next bender. No preachy, moral therapies about getting sober. This is strictly medical.
Then life is a series of benders, blackouts and not being a burden. I drink how I want to.
I just need to live long enough to fulfill my parents wish to not die before them, after that it's on.
This is the fantasy I attach to. Maybe throw in the occasional prostitute and crack bender. What's everyone else's lottery dream?