I've been going through it recently. Pulled myself out of depression just in time to see my marriage collapse. I can understand why it happened. People grow and change. But she told me that I wouldn't like the person she is now. I know its shit for me to say Im owed a chance to make things right, but theres always a that gnawing feeling in the back of my mind on those quiet nights at home.
Im also always been so adverse to change. Maybe that was part of the problem, if I think about it. And now every is about to change. I tell myself im ready for it. Im not.
Ive been trying to force small changes to open myself up more to the idea. Routine changes, venue changes. Trying new styles. Talking to more people. Its tough. The only thing that im satisfied with it my body progress. Losing weight, getting stronger. But im still scared.
Random bs from the fridge that I needed to cook.
Pork lion with lemon pepper, and same for the shrimp. Pan fried. Gnonosh with saracha mayo, and golden potatoes sliced and air fried.