u/Clueless_P0tato

For context I’m 17f and js started poly like justttt started poly, I feel like so far in poly there isn’t a group of friends Tht I can click v easily with, like idt they wld be long term friends, like I feel we r js friend for convenience so like Js in sch and shit but if anyt else nt sch related we wont share? IK is still early but i feel in sec sch there were js a few ppl that I clicked w v fast and js started talking abt weirdass stuff LOL. Idk cuz I also see some grps of friends being sooo close ALRD so idk what is more normal Haiz

Idk sia i feel a bit hard to make long term frens in poly ☹️some more our form class is mixed with diff diplomas so it’s not as if we will be seeing each other all the time in sch type of thing ☹️

I rlly hope poly can make those types of lifelong friends :(

I dunno I’ve been feeling v defeated recently, for context I’m 17f in poly rn and my past few experiences romantic wise has been so bad😬

I’ve only had talking stages cuz the guy doesn’t wanna commit and stuff, but they still want me to be exclusive with them..? I think it’s fine staying loyal and taking to one person at a time if the intent is getting into a rls but if the intent isn’t there isn’t tht js a bit manipulative? Other than that I also have guys who are the opp and js lead me on while talking to multiple girls. Ig it’s my fault for not making it clear what the intention is at the start but still 😬

Another thing is js how lustful SOME guys are in general, like it gets to a point whr all u want is just to get off… it js feels icky sometimes 😬 like they can js go hookup or do fwb without having to play w ppl’s feelings no..?

Also is hookup/fwb culture normalised now? I feel like thts more of the norm now rather than ppl Actly looking to get into a rls ☹️

Genuinely why is life throwing me these shitty guys left and right LOL. Late last yr I got thrown this guy that I was in a situationship w for like 4 months. This guy deadass insulted everything abt me nonstop, would get angry over the smallest things and take it out on me, and was v lustful 😂😂😂😂✌️✌️✌️.

Then recently I meet this guy who shows soooo much interest. Like texting n mtg v often (since same sch). Then after a few days of leading my delulu ass on I get totally switched up on 😀😀😀❤️❤️❤️ realised there was another girl all along <3333. As someone who has insanely bad attachment issues this PISSED ME OFF. HELLO. IS IT NOT AN UNSPOKEN RULE OF IF UR IN A TALKING STAGE/SITUATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE ELSE, U DONT FLIRT/SHOW INT IN OTHER GIRLS. WHAT.

I think I’ve officially js given up on my dating life 😊😊😊 I’m gna strive for tht 4.0 gpa instead IVE HAD ENUF.