u/Cloudedwith8s

Hi everyone, i haven’t posted here in a while but here it goes. I’m 34 and have been diagnosed with BPD amongst other things for 2-3 years now. Im going through a break up as my ex entered the police academy and by all means. This is the BEST WORK IVE DONE AS A BOYFRIEND. I was honest, i had already been in therapy for 4 years at this point. Idk if it’s something to wear I’m attracting those who need healing ? But the way we ended was really trash. Now i can admit accountability is something I’ve kind of tried to carry, but now that i am someone who has worked on himself i hold all my accountability. But that’s the thing, where is our love? Men with BPD, it’s extremely hard, and looking at the pwbpd loved ones chat, it’s extremely disgusting the way we are viewed. Emotions are either dead dry or turned all the way to 1000, in already feeling 10 times what an average person may feel, but still it’s always some about pwBPD fucking up, i gave so much good to this person, i haven’t always been the best but in this i gave my best. Im forgiving her, and myself for how things transpired. I guess all in all, i posted this to vent and say, it’s soooo hard to hold on. Just tell someone you love them today, no matter who. It actually might save their life..sorry the sporadic out of place post ❤️