I didn't really survive
Yep I'm still here after I spent years of abuse from my husband. He died years ago but the fallout from what happened to my Son and I is still there. I live with CPTSD and now I have a resentful Son who hates me because his life so difficult. I only stayed because I was terrified of my husband that's all !!! Even if I could go back I couldn't have changed a thing. He was going to kill me !!! Now my adult Son hates me for staying. He was there he suffered terribly also !!! Now he is blaming me for marrying his father. No one says yeah I'm going to marry a abusive man. Obviously if they were like that you wouldn't have married them. People change or maybe they manipulate and hide who they really are. Anyways this has been the worst Mother's Day ever 😢 and yes he was actually going to get rid of me. He attacked me once when my Son was little and beat me so badly that they came to my home to take pictures of my face !!! I was so badly beaten my sister had to get my groceries !!! I hid in the house for weeks !!! I was back and blue and the whites of my eyes were completely red from trauma. The only place I went was the Dr's office and the whole place just stared at me I looked like something out of a horror movie. So yes I knew exactly what he was capable of !!! I'm also completely sick of people who blame victims and say they are lying !!! He had metal health issues and was completely unhinged. I actually think maybe he had killed someone due to things he said !!! maybe I should have just left and let him hunt me down and kill me because I'm still not free !!!