I got dumped for being asexual and don’t know how to recover
I was dating an allosexual guy and things were going great for a while. We had a lot in common, got along great, and he said he didn’t see my asexuality as a dealbreaker. We were in love and started getting into a relationship after a month of dating.
He took me on a Valentine’s Day date and was acting off the entire time. I kept trying to make him laugh since I thought he was having a rough day. The next day, he wasn’t replying to my texts. After a few hours of silence, he sent me a breakup message. He didn’t want to date me anymore because I was asexual.
He took me on the Valentine’s Day date so he didn’t have to be the jerk to dump me on Valentine’s Day.
I was devastated and became severely depressed for months. I eventually gathered my bearings and gave dating a shot again. I struggled with dating since I couldn’t find myself clicking with anyone. I’ve been dating on-and-off since I got dumped last Valentine’s Day, but I can’t develop crushes or fall in love anymore.
This makes me feel like something within me is severely broken. I have a deep desire for romance, but I don’t have the motivation to act on it anymore. These polarizing feelings tear me apart sometimes. I used to be so optimistic about romance, but I feel like getting dumped completely changed me as a person.
How do I get over the hurt I feel inside? How do I regain my ability to fall in love? It’s been over a year, I feel like I should be over this by now.