I think the best way on how to explain this without sounding dramatic but I cannot remember the last time I felt real. I feel so disconnected it's driving me nuts, like I'm watching my own life through a window. Work is fine, going home is what actually pushes me to this, don't get me wrong, I love my house and my family but it seems whenever I go home, I just wanna go out, walk or smth, music in my ears 24/7, the music part might play a role in it. Been like this for a while now and the scary part is I can't tell you when it started because it didn't start it just sort of arrived and settled.
I have some money saved up and I wanna do a solo travel maybe, find myself or findapath, haha get it, jesus. I'm 27 and nothing is technically wrong, which I know is the most reddit way to describe a problem but it is what it is. No crisis or trauma, just this low grade nothing that has become so normal I only notice it when something cuts through and then disappears again. I don't know what I'm asking for here, maybe just to know if anyone else has been in this specific flavor of fine and figured out what was actually going on, cuz I'm lost.